While the title is marginally self-descriptive in its own right, due to the ambiguity of its nature it will probably require a little background. I’m under a bit of creative strain right now. That is, I’m not sure what to post about next for my blog. Call it writer’s block, call it lack of motivation (or inspiration, which sounds less lazy, but is equally troublesome), however my creative candle burns on both ends faster than a brush fire in Africa. And while my ideas start off green and lush, by the time I’m done with them they seem like ash between my fingers.
You see, my blog is meant to serve as a hub for keeping my own thoughts written down. I’m not particularly out to please anybody (though it is an enormous bonus to know that I have), for this webpage is a kind of window into my soul. I hear the eyes are supposed to serve that purpose, but since you can’t see mine through a computer screen, I thought I’d save everyone the trip to my house and post my musings on the World Wide Web for all to see.
But you can’t see until I post, and I can’t seem to post. Strangely enough, it’s not that I can’t write; it’s that I don’t know what to put up. I have about seven complete blog posts written up already. That’s right. Seven documents filled with transcribed cogitations whose luminescent glow envelops my computer screen every time I open their files. I think its God trying to tell me something.
Brennan. Post something. Write. For the love of Me, just write already.
Also, stop confusing your brightness settings with my holy, luminescent glow.
Most of my blogs, contrary to what I initially envisioned them to be, are rather reflective. Rather than jump up on stage like a stand-up comedian, I’ve taken the nice, quite seat in the back corner of the room with a pencil, pen, and some hot cocoa. There I ponder and scribble down little thoughts and musings that, while cathartic to me, might not mean anything to you. That’s where I run into to trouble. To share or not to share? Do you really want to know?
I also don’t know what to post yet because whatever I post begins to set a precedent for this blog. As of now, it’s got two purposes: Insight and Humor. But whenever I, the author and self-proclaimed virtual God of this fractional component of internet subspace, do not fully understand what this “Insight and humor” will pertain or encompass, what is to become? When God doesn’t understand how the universe works, who does?
I guess, in a sense, even though I’ve chosen to take the quiet corner seat in the back, life has stealthily grasped me in a vice grip and thrown me up on stage. The stand-up was procuring rotten fruit, so for some reason I get to be the stand-in. I don’t always feel like my thoughts are worth being read, but even if you find they aren’t, you can always choose to walk away; to like them or leave them.
So from now on, while I can’t promise that this blog will be the fun-bag of entertainment that was the focus of my initial design, I can at least say that step by step I’ll start to construct this blog into something worth reading. That’s why this blog exists; because it’s something worth reading. If it’s not that, I guess it’s just a waste of space. Nothing good ever came of yelling into a vacuum.
P.S. The next blog post will be up quite soon.
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